In his earlier work, Hidden Journey, Andrew Harvey literally wrote the book on Indian guru Mother Meera as he described how this woman he came to believe was an incarnation of the Divine Mother assisted him in coming into a more awakened state. Not much later, his view of Meera (for whom he had become the official spokesperson) began to change when she informed him that his homosexual lifestyle was spiritually wrong and insisted he renounce both homosexuality and his newfound lover.
Harvey’s account of his acrimonious split from Meera and the resulting dark night of the soul is intensely personal, and some readers may find the graphic depiction of tantric gay sex in one chapter a little too personal. But the story is fascinating as a raw chronicle of one man’s courageous struggle to reclaim his spirituality from someone who was clearly abusing it and instead forge his own direct connection to the divine.
The one problem I had with Harvey’s account, however, is that while he outlines the process of projection that caused him to originally see Meera as an incarnation of the Divine Mother, I wasn’t left with the impression that he understood that his new, negative perceptions of who Meera really is might also be subject to the same process of distortion.